My last post was pretty depressing and i'm just happy to have it alll out. I had a long talk with M aswell so i'm feeling a lot bettter. Over the last few days i'm starting to feel a lot more confident. I guess being happy is only a few smiles away.
I'm so exited for this year, i'm thinking its going to be a good one, I'll be able to test for my drivers license im may!! So many adventures will follow this summer if i pass near enough straight away. I've got my Car already which i'm thinking about naming. Its strawberry red, any ideas you guys? I have some in mid already but i want to see what you come up with!
I am trying to look at universities over the next few months and am trying to look at creative Degrees, i'm considering Photography, Interior design or Visual Communications. I'm still looking at all the options though so this is to be exiting. I'm trying to find a Uni close enough to home so that i gan go back at weekends, but far enough away so that i can stay in Halls or flats!!
I was gloomy at my photography, but i decided you know what? WHO CARES, i'm the only one who needs to like my work & then others can appreciate it if the like :)
I hope you are all enjoying 2012 so far, remember happiness is just a smile away.
Okay so i have been feeling really crappy lately. I have deadlines which seem unreachable next week and i am majorly stressing out. WHO INVENTED DEADLINES. GAH.
Right now i am sitting doing an assignment due tuesday which i dont think will ever get finnished in time, even though he extended the time we had. Photography is useless and rubbish at the moment, really struggling with darkroom experiments. There is too much to write also.
I really down and friendless. I have friends but it doesnt feel like it, i feel like the oddball the one who is always left to do their own thing when really it would be nice to actually get invited out sometimes. Our friend group at collage is litterally split. Us and them. Myself, M & S are always left out, the others have been like best friends for YEARS and so go and do their own ittle thing so then it feels like we're not good enough for them. I know they dont even realise they are doing it but it is just soo annoying. I need more friends that are actually like me but whatevs.
You know people who have those friends which are litterally sisters they have crazy sleepovers, watch movies and shop together all the time. I with i had a friend like that, one i can litterally tell anything to, we would like the same things and talk about the same things. We would make crazy photoshoots, make dens filled with fairylights, draw and watch soppy movies. We'd share books and make rubbish jokes which only we would find funny. We'd look at each other and know exactly what the other was thinking. We would take spontanious photos and not even care if we looked stupid.
Okay i'm such a dreamer and a wanderluster its insane. Maybe i should just shut up and keep my thought too myself, i have so many that they have to be written down though.
Okay i'm not perfect, but i'm me, all those times i worry and anxiety creeps in i just have ta accept it and ba;;e through it. I need to stop caring what oters think and need to develop a thicker skin.
Right need to go and do more work.
Toodle pip, Sweet dreams piczoers :)
xxxx
Right now i am sitting doing an assignment due tuesday which i dont think will ever get finnished in time, even though he extended the time we had. Photography is useless and rubbish at the moment, really struggling with darkroom experiments. There is too much to write also.
I really down and friendless. I have friends but it doesnt feel like it, i feel like the oddball the one who is always left to do their own thing when really it would be nice to actually get invited out sometimes. Our friend group at collage is litterally split. Us and them. Myself, M & S are always left out, the others have been like best friends for YEARS and so go and do their own ittle thing so then it feels like we're not good enough for them. I know they dont even realise they are doing it but it is just soo annoying. I need more friends that are actually like me but whatevs.
You know people who have those friends which are litterally sisters they have crazy sleepovers, watch movies and shop together all the time. I with i had a friend like that, one i can litterally tell anything to, we would like the same things and talk about the same things. We would make crazy photoshoots, make dens filled with fairylights, draw and watch soppy movies. We'd share books and make rubbish jokes which only we would find funny. We'd look at each other and know exactly what the other was thinking. We would take spontanious photos and not even care if we looked stupid.
Okay i'm such a dreamer and a wanderluster its insane. Maybe i should just shut up and keep my thought too myself, i have so many that they have to be written down though.
Okay i'm not perfect, but i'm me, all those times i worry and anxiety creeps in i just have ta accept it and ba;;e through it. I need to stop caring what oters think and need to develop a thicker skin.
Right need to go and do more work.
Toodle pip, Sweet dreams piczoers :)
xxxx
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Happy New Year Piczoeeeers!
Alot of people get sad that the year is over and i have to say that i am one of these people. I think so much does happen over a yearly period of time and so it can be upsetting to see it all go. It hit me though that the begining of the year is not the end of everything. You will still have all of your friends, memories and everything like wise so why not see it as a positive rather than a negative. In the end its only a bunch of numbers that have changed on our calenders. Last year i started college, lost contact with so many friend but i also met so totally amazing and different people. I have made friends with people through the internet, i started my photography page. I have learnt so much and loved so much about 2011. So many thing have happened that i want to forget too, so heres a place to start. To me though i am going to try and make this year better than last year.
SO many people set resolutions which they swear they will keep to but forget about by feburary. Dont make all of this things a resolution, make them a lifestyle change. Although i want and need to start exersising and eating healthier, i am not going to the start the year full blast gym every few days etc etc, i will chenge things gradually because they are more likely to set in stone.
If i had to set a reselution though it would be to carry my newly created 365 day photography project on my facebook page, from start to finnish. That is all.
I cannot be bothered with all this new year, new start malarky, because really its not a new start and you cannot really start from fresh.
Anyway i got some lovely gifts for christmas such as my camera lense, Kodak printer, Bayan iPhone docking station and lots more. I am so greatful to everyone who bought me somthing and my love goes out to all of my family. What did you all get? I hope you enjoyed the christmas period as much as i did.
I took this picture by accident when setting up self timer, but to be honest i have never pulled this face before!? Haha, i kind of like it.. It was in france in this amazing contemperary hotel we stayed it. I miss Austria and SKIING. i just want to go back ! I will post photographs soon!
Last night i spent the evening at a party, just drinking away and it was really quite lovely. To be honest i drank a bit too much and could stand up properly without feeling a little dizzy. Byt the time Big Ben hit Midnight everyone was singing, hugging and kissing. I didnt know most of the people there because they were all adults but they didnt care, i got hugs all around :)
Joe can't drink so i was just sitting on his lap most of the time , talking complete crap and having a good time. I love just sitting there with him, he makes me so happy. At midnight he wispered in my ear '2012 will be another happy year together' just before kissing me. It was the cutest thing ever. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.
How did you all spend your new year? I would love to know!
I have twitter which i update more if anyone is interested, so follow me @Doraaakins
Much love every one of you xxxx
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Alot of people get sad that the year is over and i have to say that i am one of these people. I think so much does happen over a yearly period of time and so it can be upsetting to see it all go. It hit me though that the begining of the year is not the end of everything. You will still have all of your friends, memories and everything like wise so why not see it as a positive rather than a negative. In the end its only a bunch of numbers that have changed on our calenders. Last year i started college, lost contact with so many friend but i also met so totally amazing and different people. I have made friends with people through the internet, i started my photography page. I have learnt so much and loved so much about 2011. So many thing have happened that i want to forget too, so heres a place to start. To me though i am going to try and make this year better than last year.
SO many people set resolutions which they swear they will keep to but forget about by feburary. Dont make all of this things a resolution, make them a lifestyle change. Although i want and need to start exersising and eating healthier, i am not going to the start the year full blast gym every few days etc etc, i will chenge things gradually because they are more likely to set in stone.
If i had to set a reselution though it would be to carry my newly created 365 day photography project on my facebook page, from start to finnish. That is all.
I cannot be bothered with all this new year, new start malarky, because really its not a new start and you cannot really start from fresh.
Anyway i got some lovely gifts for christmas such as my camera lense, Kodak printer, Bayan iPhone docking station and lots more. I am so greatful to everyone who bought me somthing and my love goes out to all of my family. What did you all get? I hope you enjoyed the christmas period as much as i did.
I took this picture by accident when setting up self timer, but to be honest i have never pulled this face before!? Haha, i kind of like it.. It was in france in this amazing contemperary hotel we stayed it. I miss Austria and SKIING. i just want to go back ! I will post photographs soon!
Last night i spent the evening at a party, just drinking away and it was really quite lovely. To be honest i drank a bit too much and could stand up properly without feeling a little dizzy. Byt the time Big Ben hit Midnight everyone was singing, hugging and kissing. I didnt know most of the people there because they were all adults but they didnt care, i got hugs all around :)
Joe can't drink so i was just sitting on his lap most of the time , talking complete crap and having a good time. I love just sitting there with him, he makes me so happy. At midnight he wispered in my ear '2012 will be another happy year together' just before kissing me. It was the cutest thing ever. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.
How did you all spend your new year? I would love to know!
I have twitter which i update more if anyone is interested, so follow me @Doraaakins
Much love every one of you xxxx
Its been exactly a month and 1 day since i last posted, What has HAPPENED! :( Waaaa, i miss you guys !
Anyway enough of that, here is my long, long post about myself.
I'm Sixteen, A student and in love with college life.
i'm trustworthy but forgetful, but at the same time i remember minor details.
i love to laugh and smile, i love to feel unjudged and accepted, i avoid awkward situations.
i love healthy food, but have too much of a sweet tooth.
i love fashion, although i dont follow the crowd.
I have anxiety a lot, i have strange habits.
I like most types of music but stick to my little alt, indie, rock fasination most of the time.
i like to choose my friends wisely, although i love everyone until they do somthing wrong or to annoy me.
I hate when people cling to me, i like my space.
if i'm annoyed i tend to be bitchy, but i dont unsually mean what i say, i just say it.
i seem like such a simple person, but really i'm kinda complicated.
Just because i look fine on the outside, doesnt mean i'm fine on the inside.
I love my love very much, even though we are seperated a lot of the time.
I believe in freedom, peace, serenity and dreams.
I should use my own advice sometimes.
I think we should all be selfish at times.
I want a good job and pretty things when i am older.
I'd like to live in a little cottage in the country side, but at the same time would love to live in a city.
I express myself im my own, strange little ways.
I'm selfconcious and come accross shy, usually i'm just trying to figure out whether anyone understands me.
At the same time i'm confident and i love who i am.
I love brushing my teeth, it always sends me on little trains of thought.
Ever since i was little i have had my head up in the clouds, i stared out the windows at school and into the distance through car windows.
I'm forever unhappy with my weight and the way i look.
I have never dyed my hair, contact lenses are my savior.
I was bullied and made fun out when i was younger, i was vunerable and i was different.
People say i have a 'because your worth it' smile and look nothing like my parents.
I love my family even though we often have our little dramas.
I love nature and animals.
Camping out in feilds, watching the sun set and gazing at the stars.
I'm a brown eyed, caramel haired.
Some days i look younger than i am, other days i look older.
Some days i like the way i look, other days i hate my looks.
I use words, quotes, phrases, pictures, art and music to associate the way i am feeling.
I think you should always forgive but never forget.
I love vintage, retro and timeless things.
I like to do things in my own time, i hate deadlines. I mean they're just DEAD, right?
I love spontanious events, decisions and people.
Books, books, books, books, BOOKS!
Sunglasses, Dresses, Tights, Jumpers, Jewlery, bags.
I hate overloading my face with makeup and lies. I hate liers. I'd rather know the truth even if it hurts.
I have girl friends and boy friends, sometimes i get on better with guys because of their attitudes.
I like drawing and being creative. PHOTOGRAPHY.
Did i mention music?
MUSIC.
I love travelling, i want to see the world while i'm young. I want to experience different cultures and i want to broaden my mind.
5* Hotels are lush.
I want to learn different languages although, i find them hard to get the hang of. I know quite a bit of german.
There is so much about me and this isnt even much of it. I'll post this and then think of more i could have written.
Well done if you read all of that, i hope it didnt bore you!
Well gollygosh (< just felt like writing that, i never get to say it... boreeed), in the newyear i am going to try and take at least a photo everyday, i'm thinking of keeping a lot of them to myself, it'll be my little personal project.
I might even get another notebook to keep the photo's in. I will try to take my camera everywhere with me. Yay. I need to post more but i never get the time and never know what people like to read about and see ?
I am hoping to post again before christmas, but i am on vacation in Austria at the moment and might not have internet for the whole week, so i'll see what i can do! :)
Keep dreaming my lovelies <3 xxx
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Anyway enough of that, here is my long, long post about myself.
I'm Sixteen, A student and in love with college life.
i'm trustworthy but forgetful, but at the same time i remember minor details.
i love to laugh and smile, i love to feel unjudged and accepted, i avoid awkward situations.
i love healthy food, but have too much of a sweet tooth.
i love fashion, although i dont follow the crowd.
I have anxiety a lot, i have strange habits.
I like most types of music but stick to my little alt, indie, rock fasination most of the time.
i like to choose my friends wisely, although i love everyone until they do somthing wrong or to annoy me.
I hate when people cling to me, i like my space.
if i'm annoyed i tend to be bitchy, but i dont unsually mean what i say, i just say it.
i seem like such a simple person, but really i'm kinda complicated.
Just because i look fine on the outside, doesnt mean i'm fine on the inside.
I love my love very much, even though we are seperated a lot of the time.
I believe in freedom, peace, serenity and dreams.
I should use my own advice sometimes.
I think we should all be selfish at times.
I want a good job and pretty things when i am older.
I'd like to live in a little cottage in the country side, but at the same time would love to live in a city.
I express myself im my own, strange little ways.
I'm selfconcious and come accross shy, usually i'm just trying to figure out whether anyone understands me.
At the same time i'm confident and i love who i am.
I love brushing my teeth, it always sends me on little trains of thought.
Ever since i was little i have had my head up in the clouds, i stared out the windows at school and into the distance through car windows.
I'm forever unhappy with my weight and the way i look.
I have never dyed my hair, contact lenses are my savior.
I was bullied and made fun out when i was younger, i was vunerable and i was different.
People say i have a 'because your worth it' smile and look nothing like my parents.
I love my family even though we often have our little dramas.
I love nature and animals.
Camping out in feilds, watching the sun set and gazing at the stars.
I'm a brown eyed, caramel haired.
Some days i look younger than i am, other days i look older.
Some days i like the way i look, other days i hate my looks.
I use words, quotes, phrases, pictures, art and music to associate the way i am feeling.
I think you should always forgive but never forget.
I love vintage, retro and timeless things.
I like to do things in my own time, i hate deadlines. I mean they're just DEAD, right?
I love spontanious events, decisions and people.
Books, books, books, books, BOOKS!
Sunglasses, Dresses, Tights, Jumpers, Jewlery, bags.
I hate overloading my face with makeup and lies. I hate liers. I'd rather know the truth even if it hurts.
I have girl friends and boy friends, sometimes i get on better with guys because of their attitudes.
I like drawing and being creative. PHOTOGRAPHY.
Did i mention music?
MUSIC.
I love travelling, i want to see the world while i'm young. I want to experience different cultures and i want to broaden my mind.
5* Hotels are lush.
I want to learn different languages although, i find them hard to get the hang of. I know quite a bit of german.
There is so much about me and this isnt even much of it. I'll post this and then think of more i could have written.
Well done if you read all of that, i hope it didnt bore you!
Well gollygosh (< just felt like writing that, i never get to say it... boreeed), in the newyear i am going to try and take at least a photo everyday, i'm thinking of keeping a lot of them to myself, it'll be my little personal project.
I might even get another notebook to keep the photo's in. I will try to take my camera everywhere with me. Yay. I need to post more but i never get the time and never know what people like to read about and see ?
I am hoping to post again before christmas, but i am on vacation in Austria at the moment and might not have internet for the whole week, so i'll see what i can do! :)
Keep dreaming my lovelies <3 xxx
