Okay so i have been feeling really crappy lately. I have deadlines which seem unreachable next week and i am majorly stressing out. WHO INVENTED DEADLINES. GAH.
Right now i am sitting doing an assignment due tuesday which i dont think will ever get finnished in time, even though he extended the time we had. Photography is useless and rubbish at the moment, really struggling with darkroom experiments. There is too much to write also.
I really down and friendless. I have friends but it doesnt feel like it, i feel like the oddball the one who is always left to do their own thing when really it would be nice to actually get invited out sometimes. Our friend group at collage is litterally split. Us and them. Myself, M & S are always left out, the others have been like best friends for YEARS and so go and do their own ittle thing so then it feels like we're not good enough for them. I know they dont even realise they are doing it but it is just soo annoying. I need more friends that are actually like me but whatevs.
You know people who have those friends which are litterally sisters they have crazy sleepovers, watch movies and shop together all the time. I with i had a friend like that, one i can litterally tell anything to, we would like the same things and talk about the same things. We would make crazy photoshoots, make dens filled with fairylights, draw and watch soppy movies. We'd share books and make rubbish jokes which only we would find funny. We'd look at each other and know exactly what the other was thinking. We would take spontanious photos and not even care if we looked stupid.
Okay i'm such a dreamer and a wanderluster its insane. Maybe i should just shut up and keep my thought too myself, i have so many that they have to be written down though.
Okay i'm not perfect, but i'm me, all those times i worry and anxiety creeps in i just have ta accept it and ba;;e through it. I need to stop caring what oters think and need to develop a thicker skin.
Right need to go and do more work.
Toodle pip, Sweet dreams piczoers :)
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woho! another dreamer in this robotic world. its okay ull get ure work done in time. i jumped when i saw that you posted again. even though it was like four days ago. great picture. pretty as ever!!!
I UNDERSTAND AND I AGREE WITH YOU !
ALMOST THE SAME SITUATION HERE BUT I TRY TO SOMETIMES DON'T THINK ABOUT IT AND JUST FOCUS ON WHAT I WANT :/
BTW LOOKING GREAT ...
I STILL FOLLOW YOUR WORK AT YOUR FACEBOOK PAGE AND LET ME TELL YOU THAT THEY LOOK FANTASTIC. KEEP DOING THE GOOD JOB AND ALWAYS STAY STRONG. LOVES YOU XX
AWWWWW I LOVE YOU BOTH!! :D xxxx
Hahahah same thing here!!!
But it's just so hard to find that "Friend".
Although, whenever I hang out with my friends I always bring my camera but we never take pictures.
But we take pictures when I'm out with my cousins. Maybe I don't need a friend because I have them they're like my family AND friends xD
Less or more all teenagers have the same thoughts as you do. I know exactly what youre talking about when you say you want someone to look stupid with and not care. Ive been there. The key is to stop thinking and start living and everything will come to its place :)
very pretty